Its a great sunday...

Sianz la.. got to wake early tmr at 6am cuz theres a meeting at raffles city esprit for a traing launch i guess..
Beats me.. i'm still new.. But excited none the less..
Jolene is getting transferred to Great world city.. She was like having this thinking as in y it wasnt me whos gonna get the transfer instead & kept asking me where GWC is.. merely told her its at havelock link rd and that theres a free shuttle bus..
kept tellin her that & she snapped back at me as to her reason due,'u dun even know the exact location..yadda ..yadda...'
What a setback..She asked what would i do if it was me? i said work is woek of cuz.. She also said that shes scared of not being able to adapt to the people over there..hmmm...
not that positive attitude she has.. but she has to be strong & move on..
ok guys gtg now...
supper now..

somethings missing..

It's like a drug..
as though i can survive a day without it..
No doubt,
Its just an empty box..
But it help me connects to my other half..
somewhere out there.

An addiction thru compulsive-ness..
blisters & sore-ness cant be helped
thru typing out a 'conversation'

once i entered the login..
mood down..
Pandemonium state is almost inevitable...
whats the point, i thought..
T.C.B is not online..

I need realism right now..
Take care TCB..
Whatever yer doing now..

CSI

yup...
thats where they found the fingerprints..
from an eyewitness testimonial, said of them opening up the windows.. voila..

nabbed.. but they gotta run a search onthe prints..


Its so exciting..
















The idiots fingerprint... haha









and thats the last evidence i found, concealed underthe bags when kak lays rm was ransacked..
hehe
do u think i have the kins of being in the CID..?hehe

heya people.. today is my second day at esprit..!! guess what!!!??? I love it there.. its so lively and the atmospehere is so encouraging..(must be the sentosa air..heheh) My new colleagues are fun.. but i kept a low pro.. .. must be a lil humble..hheh..


anyways today my half day shift.. worked from 12pm to 4pm. sheesh.. While on the bus on my way back when i got a call to come over to kak lay's house.. halfway up the stairs , i saw a few policemen doing their rounds.. didnt thought of anything, as u see.. kallang bahru always have news of kingpins & drug raids..








When i reached her floor, i grew more curious.. i saw some officers outside her door like the one below...

It was then that tla said her house was broken into.. sheesh..








Thats her, pondering... Dun worry kak lay.. Those idiots will be hanged!!!

heee.. maybe not that extreme.. hope they'll get caned or something..















The CIDs investigating kak lays room...



















See that? the house breakers manage to chisele it off.. everythin

heya..woke up at ard 11.50am , & my head started to spin bad...like kylie's song, spinning ard..hehe.. Just another of those lazy days i am experiencing today.(got a day left of lazing for me b4 i start work)..

sheesh..never felt lazier.. went to the Singapore expo with my folks as they were having this wedding exhibition going on.. i went cuz i had ordered a tube from one of those stores..mom & dad left me hanging there aas they were checking out the dangdut competition going on there...

well, well.. was suprised to see surini & suhana over there as well.. & was kinda shocked too.. its a very cramped world out there.. remembered telling one of my frens that i saw a lot of ex bowen students pairing up with bowenians as well.. well, surini was with syawal.. hehe... wish them all the best.. its enlightening to bump into old frens..

so full of myself...

at last i'm out!!

hey people..!! My relationship with msb has ended.. hahr.. thanks y'all for the wonderful time at dbl o yesterday...what a celebration for me.. i really had fun..
Was so sweet of sulastrie to get me a gift.. a musical box with a note left as said,' i know you have lots of accesories. hope u like it..' haha.. so sweet!! appreciate their doings..
Thanks Corine, wendy, may, stella, angie, peggy, sulastrie, izhar, jenny for the wonderful farewell party yesterday.. thanks for grooving with me all night long.. haiz.. thanks amril baby!! for the treat..
thank you ct for sending my corine baby back safely...i feel like boxing her for getting drunk..hehe.. haiz.. she must have had a very bad day to be in that drunken stupor..
Luckily i held my drinks quite well..
yesterday was my BIG day.. still waiting for may to send me the pictures.. hehe.. love u babe..!! lotsa!!
will update more abt yesterdays happening once i get my pictures from may..

darn.. my last day at mango this afternoon... feel sad siak..
came to work early today...Regina had given me a parcel.. she had told me not to see it till i'm home.. but curiosity got the best of me..
i read the card she gave me and fuck, i was so touched by her words...really. while i as being touched reading it, jenny gave me her hug and wished e all the best... & can u believe it , i was weeping..
thinking back all the ups and downs i've been thru over here..
tot i wud neva cry leaving there... but i did.. LOL..

Here goes my feelings thru out the years..

Feelings of sadness and happiness...
emerged...
i dread when these collides..
need to leave in gd...
to never step on bad climax..

never in their eyes..
whats good i done,
ever been praised..
whats bad i done,
always brought across like a horizon.
bad karma, i thought
just bad karma..

but is karma to be blamed..
i guess not..
or is it just me..
always been referred..
as a bad apple to the ' families'..
what have i done..?

Maybe i just like to voice out my opinion..
but is it fair to pass ..
pass their own judgements on me..
for i..
never once got aggravated abruptly..
for no apparent reason..
no its not me dear supervisor..
cant you see...

i always did what is supposed to be carried out & instructed..?
cant you see..
how red eye they are when we try to help them in gd will.
only to be dissed by them behind closed doors..
cant you see...
they enjoy doing these to their own self satisfaction...??

cant you see..
how they accuse me of stealing...?
without checking their records as to whether i bought the items...?
how they went spreadin words to bring one down...
cant you see how pressured i am..
days i've cried in silence but nobody knows...
all that they said was i always try to make them bad..

who am i..?
i'm jus a jr who working her ass off...
while they...
thinking they control situations..
just order and boss us ard..
then only to bitch that we..
the jrs cant work without a head..
shit..

them confrontations always on me..
about that i am always looking for trouble..
can you believe it..
been living with this for 4 years..
all the heartaches..

but on top of all this..
there were happy times too..
that durin amandas time...
though shortlivd..

Will always remember those smiles..
the jokes we shared...
the cheerful laughters...
the funny goofs we pulled off..
the warmth...(to certain extend)
the friendship...
regina...(my leaning shoulders)
sulastrie(my best malay frn)
corine(with her neurotic-ness)
amanda(the only supervisor i really voiced out my being pinned)
jenny(one who sometimes 'irks' me..hehe..who puts some rational mindings in me)
ivy ng..(one who always advises & believes in me..)
angie & peggy..(the bad and gds..hehe..thanks for being a darlin)

reminiscense all thats left..
its gotta be...
sure gonna have the memories for thoughts..
& so.. i have to move on.. & move on
& move on..

Bless those whos been nice to me..
to those that did me wrong too..
for i believe the hurt i've felt..
can only heal thru forgiveness..

thus..gd luck msb..
thank you for all the 'opportunities' whenever..
Thanks for the repetition..
& the rough sailing experience i've been thru
all these years..

I just pray..
my new working environment..
is a great place to be in..
amen.

post valentines day...

haiz.. hows yer Vday people..? I hope you guys know that V-day is valentines day...Not Vagina day..!!(not for you people thinking its an all sex day..)

My partner was working & so was Yans..hehe... all we had together was a late supper at BK..

Thats us outside Ngee Ann City..Actually theres abig aeroplane behind us... hee.. thanks yan.. it was fun.. My big bro... love him so much..(as a bro)

remember i said that corine was resigning?? Turns out she's not & staying for good... asked her why. her answer was that penny yap talked to her & angeline kept pushing her to stay...( well, that was what happened to me too..even alice ang talked to me personally..hmmppff...) Since she still have yet to find a job, she decided to stay...

haiz.. corine corine...if there is one thing i could make her change..its her indecisisiveness..hee.. sorry girl.. what i said is straight from my heart..

peggy's also resigning.. its like whoa... mango shaw is tumbling down..tumbling down.. tumbling down.. sheesshhhh.. wonder whether they'll have enuf staff to help ard...

& ivy ng still owes me chocolates...hehe..

wonder how my 'caged birs' is doing now.. have not chatted up with him for 3 days..

ok ok... gtg now.. or i'll be late for work..be popping by soon.. muaks..

Whats gonna happen to shaw

sigh... on the 11th is corine's last day of work...
next thurs 16/2/06 is my last day...
The next week's angies..
Kaiwen also...
then peggy tendering on the 21st.

whats gonna happen to the working condition there...?
i do pity the new supervisors.. as they are still knew to the brand...
& all their jr staffs are going off..

haiz...what do u people think is the spark that leads to al this..?
drop me a comment...

See those pictures on the left?? its all the different pieces of me.. i'd like to call it my growing up sessions.. hee..
(from left to right, top to bottom)
1. watie & me..(1 of my gd fren,omg..miss her so much)
2. fauzlin & me..(ex-colleague)
3. Me and May lee..(my woman..back off!! grrrrr...)
4.my pasport pic..at 18yrs old
5. " at 17yrs old
6. " at 15years old
7. Me and my cousins, shikin & ain
8. pasport pic.. at 20 years of age
9. " at 22 years of age
and the rebel pic is me at 19 years of age..haharr... i looked so different..
one more pasport pic coming up cuz i need 1 for my new job..

6 more days of me workin in mango shaw.. haiz..i'm so excited to be gonna startin soon im my new workin environment.. though i'm a lil skeptical abt how things are gonna turnout... but i think i should be able to adapt.. (due to pressure build up along the journey of 4yrs of being scrutinised over there) hehe..

logged in my msn.. 'caged bird' wasnt in.. haiz..dunno why but chatting with 'it' on the net makes me feel a close familiarity..somehow, i feel like i've known 'it'..

i'm sitting in my chair right now, thinking what the future holds for me..will life turn out well for me..i pray to the one up there, hope he blesses the world in peace.. hope my grams is protected in the world up ther.. i really miss her to bits..


Thia pic was my last raye picture taken with her...Its funy how fast time flies.. i will never forget her even in my sleep..Things are weird without you grams..Lots of things are said abt me nd nisa.. nek.. gimme the strength to face all those 'trouble makers'..i have to admit, no doubt i feel much more at home mingling with my male species relatives, it doesnt mean i dun fancy mingling with the female side.. its just a matter of 'roll with flow...'..

Me and my sis were plagued by nasty comments by my aunts.. i know i'm working in the retail line..so ppl who knew me speculate they can get discounts from me when they buy stuff at my working place...hah.. i was accused of being ;'pelokek' and didnt offer to give discounts on their purchases..that i kept running away when they came over..(as though to avoid giving them discounts) & lotsa nasty ones which hurt me, my sis & mum really bad..What were they thinking??? i'm working...WORKING!! not Leisure-ing...!

What they dunno was staff purchases have a limit..I never promised any discounts... If i have, i might give.. but my staff dicounts limit are solely for our own use at $450 per month...They think as though i am the boss?? Irrational theories..And if iam stingy, i would not offer to give some cash to them when they had nothin to drink & neva ask back the money from them.... never would have bought the whole family ice creams, never would have present a bday gift to some of them.. never would have loan them a huge stash of cash... sigh...If they had wanted to buy stuffs at discounted price, the verybest they could do was to ask me whether its possible...even if i cant give them that, at least they have their answers...rather than makin speculations which in turn becomes a hot topic of conversations among 'the womens club'..

But what can we do..its their mouth.. they can say what they want... i've lost my respect for them.. See, my respect to others will always remain... because being a human, we have to be alil humble.. but it seems these people have gone overboard in giving out those nasty comments.. & i believe they dun deserve any respect from my family if theycant respect our privacy..

Not only that, being close with my cousins also bacame an issue...As you see, me and my sis are an all flow duo... we're not trying to be 'gatal' or intimate with them.. just that we all got along well... what they said was we made the girls left out...
they could have joined out grp conversations, yer know.. but they chose not to...

Well, we cant force them... sigh... so here i am blasting my frustrations..that felt better...
WATCH OUT YOU PUNKS!!! NEVA STEP ON MY TAIL!!!
I CAN BE VERY NASTY WHE PROVOKED!

My first post..!

Welcome.. welcome to my first write out..haharr.. at last i managed to create a blog other than the one on friendster..

To the left.. thats me posing next to a closed shop displaying a table with water running in it like an aquarium which amril fancied a lot...Picture was taken after my birthday meal yesterday at Makan House near Jalan Sultan. You guys should try the food their.. Really Syiook!!!

(to view more of my pictures in friendster, add me at grungedude11@hotmail.com).. ciaoz