still feverish..

haiz... have been under the weathers for almost a week now.. my voice, has fullblown, like a man's.. damn.. i hate this feeling... hate it when i'm struck with the female monthly 'break' down cuz it means this period my immune systems is really low.. Cold, flu, cough.. and now, a voice change..shheesshh...
its really been a long time since i blogged.. damn, ahakz..been wanting to pen out my frustrations for a long time.. but once i am on this page, i'm blank. haha

Have u guys ever queued up at a bus interchange, & experienced some students blasting out their MP3 playable mobile and irritates u to the core???
I had my fair share on one. haha..

Last Tuesday, i was making my way to my Uncle's place with my mum who live in Yishun. While awaiting for our bus 965 at Sengkang interchange, after our lunch, there comes this 2 (m) girls. 1 in school uniform and the other in her 'funky' outfit. (note that i am easily irritated this period and was having a slight headache). the 'funky' girl was wearing a tight so called bell bottom jeans, with a belt over it, a 3/4 sleeved black collared tshirt, a VON DUTCH big bag(ermm..my "FAV" brand), hair parted centre flatly slicked with maybe tonnes of hair oil, andthick eyeliner, which simply marks an X for my BABEs listing..haiz...what era am i in!!!
ok,she was blasting her so called hit list songs very loud and i said something like, "oh man.. this irritating songs makes me more dizzy," to my mum.. and these girls stared at me(but i jus smiled). they were 'gyrating' to the songs which sends the loathe signal up my brain..& these girls think ther are cool. haiz.. i seriously thought once we were in the bus, they would stop blasting it up, but NO!!!!! they sat just right behind me and were making so much noise(suprising theres only 2 of them) that right at the 3rd bus stop, i snapped at them...
"Excuse me girls but can u guys be more considerate so as to shut off your mp3 or have it only audible to your ears.. its really bugging my dizzy spells so if u dun mind, please help to be more considerate!!!" haha...this is exactly what i said to them.right after that, thir face showed shock, & fair enuff, they raise the volume down totally..so pissed.. cuz there was a lady with 2 kids and a baby next to them on the bus.. the very least these 2 girls could do was to be more considerate. th mpre the kids cry, the louder they blast it up.. When they alight the bus, i knew they were giving me this dirty look, but guess what, i look at them and jus waved my hands at them smiling. haha..

Me and my colleagues eating chicken wings on Angel's last day of work(middle)..from left, me manager Salam, sharmila, angel, emily and me... This is so adorable. Pic snap ard at ard 11pm.













This picture is as cute as it was indicatively.. To Don, The guy in the centre. Thats his mantra for 'success in life'????











Haiz... I'm so tired after work...Have not seen Tcb online for quite a while.. Should i just not get things implicated and jus be frens or vice?? Missed its presence but A big BUt is here. jus to leave it to await its hope for the damsel across the horizon?? & pretend all is well??
Am i halucinating or my thoughts are jus too blunt? i shall leave this thoughts blank right now as i am too tired .. yawn... gd night everybody..

What i want to achieve by end of 2006

• I want my family to be living in comfort. No matter how hard or tough, we gonna make thru any hardships no matter what others say. United we stand, divided we fall..
• I want to have my bike license
• I want all my skin conditons resolved and cured
• I wish my sister finds someone who is stong and brave and without being oversuspicious
• I want my family car...............................................................................................................
• the rest of the bullets will be filled up much later on...
• THOUGHTS IN PROGRESS

HEHEHE...

ITS A TIRING DAY AS I WOKE P FROM SLEEP AT ARD 2PM TODAY...!!!!! Haiz...Take care at work amril dear..looking forward to meeting u when yer back from terengganu...

she never feels regret orfelt like it was a mistake,
knowin the caged bird..
she willingly listen to the troubles and difficulties it faced..
and grew emotionally attached..
it cant be that bad she thought..
but the days pass and shes hooked..
though happy adn excited,
as it's in search of a love lorn star..
she grew distant..
and more distant...

~~i miss you grams~~~

Its 12.45pm in the afternoon, & here i am at wak saad's place awaiting all my cousins to arrive.. Its a year passed since grams passed away. & it feels like its only last week i laast saw her.Deep inside, i really missed her badly i feel like crying..
Last night was an enjoyable day out with my sis, NIsa..hehe.. the both of us were working half shift and planned to go out.. i had finished ard 4pm.. Had went thru my first month work evaluation and i think i passed.. hehe.. dun worry salam.. iwill prove to you that i am capable of soaring high.. right now when iam typing out my blog, this song , 'di pintu syurga' by KRU and ELite is tearing up my eyes..
"takdirnya dunia hanya sementara
ini realiti
andainya daku pergi sebelum mu..
kenangkan la ku selalu di dalam doa mu
kau lah cinta yang pertama dan terakhir untuk ku..
ku berjanji akan menanti mu
setia menunggu di pintu syurga"
thats like a conversation between me n her..
Yes, she's my first and last love..

Back to my outing with adek..went to her workplace and it seems she is really pissed with her colleague, who i am not that sure..hehe.. she knoked off ard 5.30pm and we went to accompany Linda for her meal break b4 we set our struts down orchard rd.. it has been a long while since we shopped 2getha, jus the 2 of us...we went to see some mobile(she wanted to get a new phone..tsk..tsk..)
& guess what, we strutted the streets holding hands and people were giving us the cold stares as if..(u noe wot i meanT) hehe.. and walked our way to my ol working place for some retail therapy..and so our shopping bags includes items such as a baseball tshirt,a black cardigan, a lond white dress(for linda) and 2 sets of eyewear of the same design but different colors..sheesh... guess how much it all amounts to??? A WHOOPING $359!!!! haha.. luckily there was the staff purchase going on tat that time.. after the 25%. it only charges $269.25 to our pockets..kekeek...and finally we made our way to far east for our late dinner.. called ayen to ask him out .. in view of his bday, we planned to treat him makan.. but haiz.. as always, 'abg ayen' tidor la..woke up so late..i guess it was this pre biday club party going on.. Then called Yan, he said he's in town.. we were hopeful he meant ORCHARD, but NO, his town meant being at boat quay... haiz...
In the end, we still went on went on for our late dinner havin a dish meal to suit our extreme hunger and 'exhaustion' after the retail therapy..
hehe..
guess wot again, after that we went Burger king at liat towers to munch on some onion rings..haiz.. big appetite yeah.. thats when we realised it was bad and decided to walk all the wayto dhoby ghaut to burn of fthe excessive sin in our body.. haha.. & ya.. we still held hands & snap pictures all along the journey like 2 incessant freaks whos jus been let out..even in the train back home, we snapped ourselves 'dead'..
Really had fun.. soon to come more of this madness sista!!

p/s" when we got home, my dad so called were not too happy that we reached home at ard 12midnight..keke.. dun worry dad!!! we love u HOMIES!!

haiz... wheres all my cousins rright now?? In the room with couzz Ang ijal, ayen now..a soothing ambience befills me right now as Ijal strums his guitar to the indon band peterpan..hhe..
till then, updates later dude..as preparation for the kenduri is undertakin its sequence..

$$$

its early april & i am almost going broke.. damn... what was i doing with all the cash i had.. hahar.. once again, i have to bind myself..(dear witches.. bind me with the power to stop spending)..

Just got back from the GLOWER hair trichologist as a matter of factly..as my scalp was getting bad.. & i cant cant take it anymore that i have done almost all i could for medicine and advices needed for my scalp.. and the doctors i went to said they suspect that i have psoriasis but they cant confirm it.. haiz.. then as i went to see the specialist at GLOWER, it was confirmed that i am indeed suffering from it.. its a condition more worse than eczema...finally i had an answer.. went thru the scalp analysis but in fact, i wasn not financially prepared for the cost & such.. A treatment costs abt $188.. But to go for a package of 10. costs $1880 & includes another 10 treatments.. dang.. i was confused.. But i had to get my scalp 'repaired'.. shit.. a lucky thing they do take instalments..had upfront $300 for it.. They advise me to go for twice a week treatment, but viewing my financial status, i told them i could only afford like twice a month..

phew..Aother set of $$$ flowed out of my account..& i am left with a pitiful amount of $190 to last me till the end of the month..but i guess this is for the best.. wouldnt want to have a scalp full of 'roti prata'.. ermm... i wont elaborate further cuz it kind of reminds me of the photo video they took of my scalp...

Dear god, if u could hear my plea..send me lotsa cash.. dear santa, if u could sent me a very early christmas gift consisting of cash, i promise i wont ask for anything else again..

for now, feeza is on a STRIKE! No more spending STRIKE..
Can i survive..?
Lets wait & see..

~gd bye my 'lover', gd bye my fren

just got home and omg.. i feel so tired... met up faizan my dude and he's such a 'jumpy' one.. nice catching up with him.. keke.. dude...
wont elaborate that much..

Go for yer dreams..
Reach as high as a mountain to achieve..
go on forth & never turn back.. i know, she's so real in yer life..
dunno y i have to be feeling like this.. but...
Reach for her if yer heart says so..
for i know, she'll Carrie u away...
where your happines awaits u..
Thanks for everything..
Thanks for all..
go soar up high..