See those pictures on the left?? its all the different pieces of me.. i'd like to call it my growing up sessions.. hee..
(from left to right, top to bottom)
1. watie & me..(1 of my gd fren,omg..miss her so much)
2. fauzlin & me..(ex-colleague)
3. Me and May lee..(my woman..back off!! grrrrr...)
4.my pasport pic..at 18yrs old
5. " at 17yrs old
6. " at 15years old
7. Me and my cousins, shikin & ain
8. pasport pic.. at 20 years of age
9. " at 22 years of age
and the rebel pic is me at 19 years of age..haharr... i looked so different..
one more pasport pic coming up cuz i need 1 for my new job..

6 more days of me workin in mango shaw.. haiz..i'm so excited to be gonna startin soon im my new workin environment.. though i'm a lil skeptical abt how things are gonna turnout... but i think i should be able to adapt.. (due to pressure build up along the journey of 4yrs of being scrutinised over there) hehe..

logged in my msn.. 'caged bird' wasnt in.. haiz..dunno why but chatting with 'it' on the net makes me feel a close familiarity..somehow, i feel like i've known 'it'..

i'm sitting in my chair right now, thinking what the future holds for me..will life turn out well for me..i pray to the one up there, hope he blesses the world in peace.. hope my grams is protected in the world up ther.. i really miss her to bits..


Thia pic was my last raye picture taken with her...Its funy how fast time flies.. i will never forget her even in my sleep..Things are weird without you grams..Lots of things are said abt me nd nisa.. nek.. gimme the strength to face all those 'trouble makers'..i have to admit, no doubt i feel much more at home mingling with my male species relatives, it doesnt mean i dun fancy mingling with the female side.. its just a matter of 'roll with flow...'..

Me and my sis were plagued by nasty comments by my aunts.. i know i'm working in the retail line..so ppl who knew me speculate they can get discounts from me when they buy stuff at my working place...hah.. i was accused of being ;'pelokek' and didnt offer to give discounts on their purchases..that i kept running away when they came over..(as though to avoid giving them discounts) & lotsa nasty ones which hurt me, my sis & mum really bad..What were they thinking??? i'm working...WORKING!! not Leisure-ing...!

What they dunno was staff purchases have a limit..I never promised any discounts... If i have, i might give.. but my staff dicounts limit are solely for our own use at $450 per month...They think as though i am the boss?? Irrational theories..And if iam stingy, i would not offer to give some cash to them when they had nothin to drink & neva ask back the money from them.... never would have bought the whole family ice creams, never would have present a bday gift to some of them.. never would have loan them a huge stash of cash... sigh...If they had wanted to buy stuffs at discounted price, the verybest they could do was to ask me whether its possible...even if i cant give them that, at least they have their answers...rather than makin speculations which in turn becomes a hot topic of conversations among 'the womens club'..

But what can we do..its their mouth.. they can say what they want... i've lost my respect for them.. See, my respect to others will always remain... because being a human, we have to be alil humble.. but it seems these people have gone overboard in giving out those nasty comments.. & i believe they dun deserve any respect from my family if theycant respect our privacy..

Not only that, being close with my cousins also bacame an issue...As you see, me and my sis are an all flow duo... we're not trying to be 'gatal' or intimate with them.. just that we all got along well... what they said was we made the girls left out...
they could have joined out grp conversations, yer know.. but they chose not to...

Well, we cant force them... sigh... so here i am blasting my frustrations..that felt better...
WATCH OUT YOU PUNKS!!! NEVA STEP ON MY TAIL!!!
I CAN BE VERY NASTY WHE PROVOKED!