going broke soon once i get my pay this sat.. haiz... gonna pay all my outstanding bills m1,sT, parents, GE,insurance, transportation fare, and wedding stuff.. then to top it all off.. i have 4 wedding invites and 4 BIG BIRTHDAY GIFTS TO GET..OMG!!!
1st july- amril's ex classmates wedding.2 to be precise..
7th july-My Daddy's birthday(an uncle who took me under his care while i was little), pak yems nikah and is future wifes' birthday
8th july- my best friends wedding & razmy's
14th july- amril's cousins' wedding
17th july-my lil bro, zafri's birthday
21 july-my fav uncle's birthday..cik rashid
27th july-adlis weddin
29th july- my uncle, wak saads birthday..(the one whos gonna be my wedding witness)

life

like they said money makes the world go round...it sets smiles on our faces.. but it also tears people apart..sometimes i feel sorry for those with finacial problems.. but most of the time, i loath certain individuals too..

dear god, i pray that people wont take my moms gdwill for granted...cuz i will really blast or fire them...let them say, i am 'anak kurangajar' or an ingrate.. ut i am all grown up, and i have brains to thnk and react accordingly.. jus that my temper needs some fencing off to do.. haiz... selamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin, i hope they dun take advantage of this sayings too...

gosh ..its been eons since i lst updated my blog.. whats been bringin me down..? haha..work work work, msn...maple work...families..haiz.. what the ****.haha..Mom and dad went cruising in our nissan on saturday with bik ati, bik noor, daddy, mummy etc..without my sis and me.. i was hoping they'll enjoy themselves over there, with eager expectation that they'll bring back lotsa pictures to view.. i got a shock when this morning mom took out a gre camera case(OMG) ecause thats a spoilt one. told her that day at 8am sat, that i'll pass her my digi cam, ut she said its alright, she undrstand.. i dun even know what she understand.. i was pissed of cuz, due to the fact that i dun know what she understand when i didn even say anything yet.. hope crush when she asked me, 'jar, why does the camera shows an E?" duh!!! its an empty shell mama. Smacked my forehead!!!! all the snaps she took was for nothin.. haz..

Sometimes in life, we have to look on the bright side of things.. no matter how happy or sad we are, there is always an enlightenment at the end..

if we think that we are poor, there are others who are poorer than us.
if we have problems which cant be solved, or that ours are 'chialt', there are others whose problems are so much bigger and worse than us..

so i've learnt, long time ago, to jus smile along whenever encountered with an unjust situation.. it doresnt hurt to smile..

~~THEM WHO WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON IN MY HEART.

Devastation

The death of my loved uncle, pak wi, has set me thinking deep.... yup, thats him on the right.. 2 years ago, i cried for him, afraid of losing the jovial uncle that i had always loved all my life..he went into a deep coma, where even the doctors were saying he has no hope.. only to prove them wrong when he awoke from the coma.. how was i to forget that incident, where pak wi, Nisa and Arwah Nenek kinah all warded the same day...

When i thought u were getting better, y didnt u tell us about your health. i miss u every time cuz we lived so near yet its so hard for us to even meet... when i called u, its always off.. either that or u didnt answer my calls...

its such an eerie dejavu

u didnt say out ur problems, but u hinted the unhappiness of your marriage thru blunt remarks..
i am sad cuz u were not as happy as before ur marriage.. it hurts me to see u be so happy and jovial, but i can see u do not want to burden others with ur problems...

its eerie cuz on arwak wak zizah burial, u said u'll be next.. yet u laughed it off..
its eerie cuz u said u might not be able to see me getting married..
its eerie cuz u are really gone.. right now, i am feeling anxious cuz i have not seen ur body yet...

i pray with all my heart.. hope HE 'rahmati' ur soul in the after world.. its 8.59 pm. u're gonna be brought back at 8.30am tmr.. its gonna be more than 24 hours after that ur body will be able to get buried.. be patience dear.. we do not want ur burial delayed too.. but since the police are handling it.. i guess everything is in HIS hands.

feeza

still feverish..

haiz... have been under the weathers for almost a week now.. my voice, has fullblown, like a man's.. damn.. i hate this feeling... hate it when i'm struck with the female monthly 'break' down cuz it means this period my immune systems is really low.. Cold, flu, cough.. and now, a voice change..shheesshh...
its really been a long time since i blogged.. damn, ahakz..been wanting to pen out my frustrations for a long time.. but once i am on this page, i'm blank. haha

Have u guys ever queued up at a bus interchange, & experienced some students blasting out their MP3 playable mobile and irritates u to the core???
I had my fair share on one. haha..

Last Tuesday, i was making my way to my Uncle's place with my mum who live in Yishun. While awaiting for our bus 965 at Sengkang interchange, after our lunch, there comes this 2 (m) girls. 1 in school uniform and the other in her 'funky' outfit. (note that i am easily irritated this period and was having a slight headache). the 'funky' girl was wearing a tight so called bell bottom jeans, with a belt over it, a 3/4 sleeved black collared tshirt, a VON DUTCH big bag(ermm..my "FAV" brand), hair parted centre flatly slicked with maybe tonnes of hair oil, andthick eyeliner, which simply marks an X for my BABEs listing..haiz...what era am i in!!!
ok,she was blasting her so called hit list songs very loud and i said something like, "oh man.. this irritating songs makes me more dizzy," to my mum.. and these girls stared at me(but i jus smiled). they were 'gyrating' to the songs which sends the loathe signal up my brain..& these girls think ther are cool. haiz.. i seriously thought once we were in the bus, they would stop blasting it up, but NO!!!!! they sat just right behind me and were making so much noise(suprising theres only 2 of them) that right at the 3rd bus stop, i snapped at them...
"Excuse me girls but can u guys be more considerate so as to shut off your mp3 or have it only audible to your ears.. its really bugging my dizzy spells so if u dun mind, please help to be more considerate!!!" haha...this is exactly what i said to them.right after that, thir face showed shock, & fair enuff, they raise the volume down totally..so pissed.. cuz there was a lady with 2 kids and a baby next to them on the bus.. the very least these 2 girls could do was to be more considerate. th mpre the kids cry, the louder they blast it up.. When they alight the bus, i knew they were giving me this dirty look, but guess what, i look at them and jus waved my hands at them smiling. haha..